dont let ur emotion in charge of ur life

i m busy this week, 4 tests and a paper.. Tests r done and they are all bad. I feel so regret, and it also means I dont concentrate enough. I am even lazier than I was in fall term. Failure cant be repeated again and again.

I NEED TO CHANGE! BE THE BEST OF ALL!

I didn't put my best effort on things. I shouldn't compare myself with Crystal, but she sets an example for me to do better and DO MY BEST! I have a lot of things to do this year, the busy junior year. I chose to challenge myself in taking harder classes, and I am confident to do the best in all of them, not just for myself but also for my family. I am so glad to be with my family, and they give me support. Dad, I don't want you to be sad. Please pray for me to work as hard as I can. I can work anytime and God please teach me how to allocate time efficiently. I can't be the one I am now. I need to finish my essay immediately and move on on SAT subject tests, SAT I and Science Olympiad.