new life. make improvements!Do better.

i got my report card today. I didn't get honor role. The biggest mistake I made is I didn't prepare enough for my finals. I am less hard working than I was for tests and quizzes. I need to pay full attention to everything I learnt and not to waste time on playing. Today is my last day to be sad about all things including my father's case and my performance for the fall term. Starting from tomorrow, new term starts and I am gonna learn new things. Do everything the best so that I will not regret for my marks. Pay extra effort than anybody else. This is the last day for my indulgence in desserts, start dieting from TOMORROW for healthy life and better brain power. Sorrow flushes away with sleep and new tasks. Although it is old-fashion, the adage"Losing is the mother of winning" always works. Try not to be too sentimental with the past, work harder, concentrate more on minor faults made in tests.


Targets:
1. Study everything learnt on that day. Do all homework as fast as possible, paying full attention.
2. no computer/music when studying or doing homework.
    seperate the time for fun and work.
3. dessert once a week only. need to lose weight as soon as possible.
4. run everyday for half an hour as it helps memorization.
5. smile to everyone and be talkative. Help people.
6. get in touch with old friends frequently.
7. no FACEBOOK GAMES>.

MOST IMPORTANT: pray everyday. for father. for family. for friends. for myself and the world.

是好还是坏？

现在跟Richard在一起，感觉好想没有什么难忘回忆。。怎么样都是只能当好朋友吧或许。。。完全不知道怎么办，感觉有点失落。。明明是男朋友但是我们却不亲昵。。为什么我总觉得他不喜欢我的？女人的直觉是对的么？又再一次单恋了？？应该是吧。。本来就没什么人喜欢我的。。太闷骚，太无趣，太不优雅，太没幽默感，太自私，太无情。。还是习惯一个人好了～早就应该做好心理准备一辈子自己过的。。。不要再浪费时间在无谓的事，无谓的人身上。。还是好好读书吧～要赚钱养自己。反正我本来也没要求对象要符合什么条件，，，听听音乐平静心灵。寂寞也没有不好的

Back to the US？

this is my 2nd yr，i need to do better in many perspectives。
take initiative in chatting w americans~
write proposals n hold activities to promote hk n chinz culture~
work hard n concentrate
enjoy ur life n living in sstx^_^
talk to ppl whenever u meet someome in ur class~
dont afraid to be embarrassed，humiliated or not answered~talk。keep talking。
smile^_^
dance daily n run during weekends！
no desserts during dinner n no food during dorm meeting~
study hard~
spend more time w Carter n be best fds；）
greatly get involved in dorm activities~
care for others~
gd luck n work hard to make fds！！！：）

sleep for 8hrs to avoid getting fat xd

好想做女神lol

slp at least 8hrs
target 44.5kg（8kg to go！！！）
eat less n only when hungry.
no dessert！！！no buffet！！！no high tea！！！
eat lean meat n more veggies n less carbs;)
Be more girlish~always wear dresses n skirts~~
Be elegant!
Study hard!concentrate on SAT!Meet handsome n rich guys as many as possible in ivy leagues xdd
Don't spend time on men that don't match my criteria~~
dance for perfect body shape；）
Work hard play hard xd
为全新既形象加油~~^_^

新的體會。

做人要戴面具，不可表露真實情緒。卻不能太假。在別人面前不發脾氣，總要笑面迎人。唉其實想搵個男仔依靠。。。身邊d人個個都有另一半，點算？

单身。缺点。忧郁。

很难想象一个人居住是多么的寂寞。。很想有一个人可以依靠，可是总觉得其他人只喜欢玩弄我，调戏我。。身材太差，屁股超大，手臂大腿巨粗，肚子满是肥肉。。刚减肥中段成功又乱吃东西，结果打回原形。。有时候真的不想活了。。。样子平常，性格内向又容易发脾气。。。不懂撒娇，总是大咧咧的。。剩女啊。。都已经十七岁啦什么经验都没有。。是我不懂得把握机会，还是我太被动？我究竟是什么？怎样才可以惹人喜欢？妈妈总是说缘分要来便来，不用强求。。可是我真的想不通自己有什么地方人家会喜欢的。。无论从哪个人身上我都能看到优点。。可是我自己呢？ 我很想与喜欢的人一起住别墅，浪漫地度过一周。。有时候我的要求很简单。。其实我很容易便会高兴的，同时也很容易忧愁的／／谁能安抚我的心？就算没情人，可否给我一个可以随时来关心我的异性密友？真想谈一次恋爱。。为了减肥，除了芝麻糊，核桃糊，花生糊，绿豆沙，豆腐花,以及各种用红枣，山楂，桂圆，木瓜做的甜点以外其他不能吃。为了减肥，只有十点之前没东西干就要去🏃。好好锻炼自己，减轻郁闷的情绪！

難道又打回原形了？

這一次in YA失敗了。在waiting list裡無期望可以入選。。唉好不容易建立既自信霎時間無形無蹤。。。再次否定自己的能力。可能我真的一無是處，我一定做甚麼事都要加倍努力。減肥，SAT，英文口語，領導地位，中提琴！！ 是時候站起來啦~；） 真係好多謝timo kc longman eliza 聽我講野^_^ supportive fds r so important in my life

Starting from the beginning.

Feelings. Not revealed. Those kept in deep heart are secured. No one cares, no one knows.everything I come to during summer holiday makes me feel happy, except for my weight;(must skip snacks and cold things; )))))