Past is past.

Skimming through my past blog posts, I see childishness and recklessness.

I expect myself to be more mature as a college student.

Going school overseas has been a hard thing for me, as I am a person who is afraid of being alone.

After some serious discussions with friends on our future and career aspirations, I decide to be more disciplined and ambitious.

ORGANIZATION.

TIME MANAGEMENT.

PRIORITIZATION.

GIVE and TAKE.

FOCUS.

DECISION MAKING.





K. gotta think through things and set up goals for the new academic year.

learn from mistake

stop being distracted by social life!

GRADES r first priority!!!!!!!!


study alone.
focus.
dont eat extra sweets.

再过一个月就结束了

全力冲刺！
high honor!
SATII!
All State!
CORNELLCORNELLCORNELLCORNELL..................
减肥！今天开始no零食，糖。。（except my damn sweet yogurt...:( )
:)

ai

dont know how to express my feelings... the computer is so slow too... ai i m so confused.. wt should I write for my personal statement? How can I get a balance btw fun and work? I m soooo messed up...from tmr i reli need a daily timetable! Lets do it :) Bertha U can do it.

SAT >2300!
ACT>34!
SATII 5 subjects >700!
TOEFL 118!
yeahyeahyeah gayau ~~~~~

存在价值

马陆让我再次思考我生存的意义是什么。。
好像从来没有让我觉得做得完美的事。。
我已经不能再说出安慰自己的话了。。
因为每一次都发现自己根本没努力，（还说神马自己很努力啊。。傻B白痴厚脸皮）
每一次都让妈生气，让爸心痛。。
我真希望做到让他们非常引以为荣的事。。
老师说我真的很想上电视，我很喜欢别人的注视，不知道什么时候开始我已经对其他人任何的批评免疫了，
我很想像林雪，仲基那样看上去很完美，可是我没有付出与他们同等的汗水。
天父啊！求你不断引导我努力向上，我说过要努力很多遍了，可是口说无凭。。
一大堆暑假计划，一定要好好完成。
老是觉得存在感太低，我要成为焦点！让所有人都夸奖我，不管付出那样的努力。
我不怕任何事，最怕失去爱我的人，无论是家人，朋友，还是其他人
毫无眷恋？！说真的我习惯了孤单。
也许我永远无法粉碎那道在我和别人之间的无形的墙，
可是为了生存，我要讨好所有人，我要收藏自己所有真正的情感，在处事做一个专业的演员：）
忍！！！！！！！！万事保持冷静开朗，经常带着阳光笑容~

to be or not to be

actually no one cares if I am alive or not...
everything I did was just disappointing...
I don't see anything with happiness...I just screwed up everything...
nothing is really important for me because I am just invisible.
I pay efforts but there were never results...
how stupid m I?how unfortunate m I?
wt is the purpose of life, I wonder...
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我跟你说了多少遍要专心，付全力！！！！

说了多少遍了。。。自讨苦吃
没努力是不会得到什么的。。。
今年结果是什么？压力大为理由，长胖了很多。。
现在又在吃东西了。
你哪里努力过了？现在这样你开心么？
加油吧。。
你没有别人聪明，可是所有人都可以努力的。
暑假做好所有要做的事情。
这已经是你最后的机会了